Sorry I started typing love and the rest just followed. So...I was looking at my 'first' love's picture on facebook tonight, in my defense it popped up on my feed. I realized, holy fudge he looks so freaking old! When did this happen?? Especially since he's about a month younger than me?!? Do I look that old?? Wait no, breath, breath, remember your dad's friend. He was just here in December? Yeah, remember him. He still thought you were in high school. Breath, it's okay, trust that you still look like a high schooler while he now looks like a freaking 25 year old man. Wait, I look like a kid and he looks like a man...I don't like that either. Mainly cuz we used to fight over, who's taller, who's better, etc. and so him looking older doesn't sit well with me either... What's up with this!!!??? Lolz, anyways I really wanted to share some of my erratic thinking, and plus it made me laugh really hard. I actually just showed the picture to my mom and she thinks he looks almost 30. I think it's because of the facial hair. Anyway, thought I'd share a funny.
Oh, and yes at one point this guy was my bf but we ended on good terms (as I usually try to do cuz I for some reason end up dating my friends and don't want to lose them), so it's perfectly okay for us to be friends. Granted we don't talk a lot anymore. Basically cuz I'm still kind of trying to forget him and all the good times we had. Whenever I meet a new guy, I instantly compare. Which isn't good, but I think I'm almost over him finally. The last time we actually saw each other in person we were both 17. Which was quite a while ago. And I don't think I'll probably ever run into him again. Well more than likely not. Anyway, sorry if this bored you and you read it all the way through. However, it may help explain where some of my story ideas come from. he was on my mind a lot, and sometimes still is.